Sunday, June 18, 2006

hallo.

i dunno if it was a dream or not cus i know that i was really really sound asleep after that.

it was either a dream or it really happened heh. but i only have a vague recollection of it.

i got off the phone la. den after that i felt like i was pegged to my bed by some force. it was like i couldnt move even thou i tried to lift my arms. den there was like this weird silence in my room for awhile. i got alittle scared so i started speaking in tongues. den i felt wave and wave of the Holy Spirit. It was overwhelming but really really nice. den it was like the images of my room started to fade, like i didnt see my room anymore but i was somewhere else. just that that somewhere seemed so blur, i couldnt even make out what it was. den i heard a voice, it wasnt that 'send a chill down ur spine' sort of ghastly voice. but it was like reiterating certain lines of verses or sermons or smt that i cant really remember but it felt like a lady's voice. that the voice slowly faded away. next thing i knew, i opened my eyes, checked my phone. it was 7.50am.

talk about weird. couldnt have been a demonic attack right. cus it wasnt scary at all. but den again wad could it be. if it was a vision, why was everything blur. what was it? i m kinda puzzled. and i went soundly to sleep after that, so i really cant remember if it was a dream or a real thing.

oh wells. somehow i wish that it opened up my spiritual eyes and ears. its like i have always felt God place ideas, place thoughts into my mind, always felt the presence of God, the peace of God, had revealations here and there but i have never really seen a vision nor heard the voice of God other than that time when i saw myself in PJC. even that i wasnt sure whether it was a vision or not. bleh. i wish God was more real to me.

anyway. nap time den study time. tata!

and u know what, this is something i m never gonna understand bout u. why is it so hard to open up?

|cowpoo| 2:23 PM|

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